Day 17
My whole body feels like it has been beat up. Throwing up is such a weird full body reaction. I am sore. However, my mind is a little more active today. It's pouring rain outside so no work today. Just writing and praying. I woke up this morning longing for companionship. Or really just human touch. My body hurts and could be soothed by a caring person being with me. It's in these moments when I wonder God, why this long period of not having someone in my life? Why cause my life to be barren in this way? I'm not a monster. My only request, he be a God loving man. Someone who will let me be in relationship with God and not ridicule me. Someone who loves my curves and my lack of curves. Someone I can trust and someone, I can pray with. I won't set intentions about this, other than praying for God's plan. He is a better matchmaker than I am. I am watching a show on sacred relics and Christianity. It's making me long for community. A place wher